Same old rant

How can you hold on to something you don’t believe in anymore? How can you keep going when you’re not happy anymore and everything seems to fall apart and everything that used to feel so right feels so wrong now? I’ve been asking these questions to myself every single day for a few weeks already.

A year ago I told myself I’m so tired of thinking I deserve any less yet I’m doing it again!

A friend asked me if I want to come with them to go back to Manila and join HP again but different account it sounds tempting but like “HE” always tell me that I have unstable mind, I really don’t know what I want.

All I know is I went here because I just want to be away from everything in Manila, I wanna be far away from him and I want to start a new life but it’s been a year already, I am not even living my life here, everything has been just all about work, I even bought a camera to force myself to go out but still failed. I am really not sure if I still want to be here, I should have really moved with my cousins, I will definitely live with them next year, fuck privacy!  Maybe I should finally consider moving to Australia and my whole family would love that.  But for now I need to focus on my annulment and getting Maisie to live here with me.  I’ll be fine, I always get by.

In fact I’m progressing, I made friends with DB guys, we even planned to go biking next year once everyone is back from their Christmas vacation at Manila.

Can’t wait for March, I wish I can pull days forward.  Maisie was calmer when I talked to her last night, she started counting days until she gets back here.

Anyway who wants to play casino game online?

Une femme qui ne porte pas de parfum n’a pas d’avenir

Je ne suis pas un grand fan de Parfum, car la plupart du temps je suis allergique à ce produit.

Je suis en train de chercher quelque chose qui ne se déclenche pas mes allergies, et j’ai une liste de Parfums qui m’a été recommandé.

J’aime Dolce et Gabbana Light Blue, mais parfois il déclenche toujours mes allergies.

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this is why I’m a fatty part 2

Nasi Lemak, this one’s supposed to have  roasted peanuts together with the dried anchovies but since peanuts are really bad for my asthma I always ask them to remove it.  It’s the National dish of Malaysia, I just Google it now! hahaha

My banana is from my home country hahaha, seems all fruits here in SG are imported

Got fed up with Häagen-Dazs so I changed to Ben and Jerry’s yum yum!

I really need to get back to gym but when the good Lord showered the world with laziness I got it all!

Anyway, I wonder if google translate is 100% accurate, I know someone who speak french and I asked him to translate the below sentence and he gave me different translation from the one google gave me.

Votre répétiteur – une nouvelle approche pour les cours particuliers

My friend’s translation — votre means another répétiteur – une meanig 1 nouvelle meaning new approche = approach  pour = for  les cours = course particuliers. = particular

Gooogle’s translation — Your tutor – a new approach to tutoring.

Now, when I translate the output google gave me back to french it gave me a different one. It say “Votre tuteur – une nouvelle approche de tutorat.”

whatever…

you have your loving hands for goodness sake!

One thing I don’t understand with men, especially with married men who works abroad and far away from their wives is that they cannot control their sexual urge. I only knew a very few who doesn’t go for escorts, adult services, adult personals or all this dating stuffs offline or online, but when I ask them do they love their wives and if so why do they do it, I always get the answer that they love their wives very much and it just happens and it’s just sex and it meant nothing. Maybe it meant nothing for them but it meant everything to their wives even if there’s no feelings involved.

“It is just sex and it means nothing” is a very lame excuse! There was this one I talked to about this stuff, I asked him what if it was his wife who did the same thing, wouldn’t it kill him? He said definitely it will and suddenly told me I made him feel bad but before that he was really defending that there’s nothing wrong with what he does because everyone does it. The hell with everyone, it doesn’t makes it right just because majority do it.  Besides the fact that they cheat their wives, they also risk themselves from getting sick.  Men are sometimes really stupid!

Go Green

One of the things I like here in Singapore is that you can see a lot of trees and even tough there are a lot of construction going on every year they still strive to keep the country green.

In Brazil, they have this project where they develop tree farms and forestry and anyone can join and invest, you can speak with Greenwood regarding the investment here and find more about the project information.  You can help make the world greener and at the same time earn money from it, isn’t a good deal?