How can you hold on to something you don’t believe in anymore? How can you keep going when you’re not happy anymore and everything seems to fall apart and everything that used to feel so right feels so wrong now? I’ve been asking these questions to myself every single day for a few weeks already.
A year ago I told myself I’m so tired of thinking I deserve any less yet I’m doing it again!
A friend asked me if I want to come with them to go back to Manila and join HP again but different account it sounds tempting but like “HE” always tell me that I have unstable mind, I really don’t know what I want.
All I know is I went here because I just want to be away from everything in Manila, I wanna be far away from him and I want to start a new life but it’s been a year already, I am not even living my life here, everything has been just all about work, I even bought a camera to force myself to go out but still failed. I am really not sure if I still want to be here, I should have really moved with my cousins, I will definitely live with them next year, fuck privacy! Maybe I should finally consider moving to Australia and my whole family would love that. But for now I need to focus on my annulment and getting Maisie to live here with me. I’ll be fine, I always get by.
In fact I’m progressing, I made friends with DB guys, we even planned to go biking next year once everyone is back from their Christmas vacation at Manila.
Can’t wait for March, I wish I can pull days forward. Maisie was calmer when I talked to her last night, she started counting days until she gets back here.
Anyway who wants to play casino game online?



