You have the most beautiful blue eyes I’ve ever seen in my entire existence and I could really kill myself now for pushing you away. (pakipot pa kse amf) I was surprised hearing your voice and you waking me up to check up on me, oh well I was still alive with a big regret of how I treated you the way I did, it was so stupid of me, trying so hard to find that feeling of strong connection between us and later did I realized that I was in fact wanting someone else. But you’re keeping in touch so I think you haven’t lost your interest and I didn’t totally blew it… so I guess next week we can start over again?
Anyway since I was so pissed off at myself I laid down in bed the whole day just listening to music, emotera mode. It’s never easy turning my back into something so special and addictive but I have to because I should know better and I hate how I have to really struggle not to give in even how much I really want to. I can do this! It’s funny how I literally look in front of the mirror to remind myself I deserve better. I am getting weirder everyday!
Below are my songs for the week or maybe for the whole month!
Misery – Maroon 5
So scared of breaking it that you won’t let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters I won’t ever send
Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper then they seem
You’d rather cover up I’d rather let them be
So let me be and I’ll set you free
Your salty skin and how it mixes in with mine
The way it feels to be completely intertwined
It’s not that I didn’t care it’s that I didn’t know
It’s not what I didn’t feel, it’s what I didn’t show
Need you now – Lady Antebellum
Another shot of whiskey can’t stop looking at the door
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It’s a quarter after one I’m a little drunk
And I need you now said I wouldn’t call
But I’ve lost all control and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you now guess I’d rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all
Till I Get Over You – Michelle Branch
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice
chaque fois que tu t’en vas
You just bring me down
je pretends que tout va bien
So I’m counting my tears
Till I get over you
