So I decided to keep my banner, so what if it’s written in French? I guess I’ll continue to learn the language as I have french friends and maybe one day I’ll visit Paris, ayun yun oh! hahaha

It’s crazy how I can laugh about it now, he taught me well, he taught me that men can make a girl feel that it means something when it really means nothing, at all, maybe I misread everything.  I admit it was a misunderstanding and I knew what it was from the very beginning.  Thoughts of him still creeps in sometimes, but it doesn’t bring tears to my eyes anymore and strangely it puts a smile on my face.

Anyway, I’m done talking about him now.  I had two of my tooth extracted last week! but that doesn’t stopped me from pigging out! I have been eating too much lately, not sure if it’s because of stress or depression or whatnot!  So I really need to do extra laps to lose what I’ve gained last month!

I have been thinking of resigning but I am really not responding to other opportunities, I don’t think I really want to leave UBS yet, it’s just that I don’t want the crazy work schedule anymore, but if I think about it, I like where I am now, I’m doing more technical work and learning a lot of stuffs, and my boys are right, they love me there so my only issue is my work schedule which is still a big deal for me because I need a day job to be able to get Maisie back.  I just haven’t found the right job yet.  I turned down the offer with DB because I don’t want to be stuck! I still need to weigh things, the schedule with DB is really good because there’s no night shift, offer is just a bit diff from what I’m earning now but the work is really far from what I do in UBS and I am really not sure I want to give that up just for the sake of no night shifts, besides there are other opportunities, the problem with me is I’m lazy all the time!

Is it really that I’m lazy or is it because I don’t want to leave yet?  Jeremiah keeps telling me he doesn’t see it in me that I really want to leave because I just keep saying I want to but I’m not doing anything about it, I’ve turned down three offers for the last two months already and I am not even exerting effort to look for a new job.

Well it’s already August so I guess 4 more months isn’t so bad, but I swear I’ll start finding a new one next week, I’ll have my CV ready.  It’s frustrating because I thought I wanted that job with DB.

I’m still undecided if I should keep this domain name, I think it will expire next month.

Kanagasabapathy “Saba”

Our manager got a call from India about Saba’s death last friday and it just hit me that I need to stop whining. I was literally crying on my desk while I was working after our manager gave a final announcement that he died.  He was one of the best guy in the team.

He was the one who raised the request for my account creations when I joined the team, he was very friendly. He was not just a colleague or a mate, he was a good friend, a brother and a mentor. He was an inspiration. He went back home to his homeland for his birthday and he was so excited, he was even facebook-ing before the car accident happened that caused his death . He used to always give me pranks calls on my desk phone before he goes home, or tease me and try to snatch my food or drinks. He was a good man and it was a great loss for his loved ones and for the team.

He will surely be missed and he will always be in our thoughts and prayers.