I feel so sick inside.

I can’t blame him because it was true, he never said he loves me, and I know he doesn’t, but six months is still six months.  I am so pissed off with myself more than with him being not a MAN and tell me, because I went against my better judgement and let myself get too attached.  Now I can’t even tell which is real with everything we’ve shared.

I’m so stupid, men are lining up for me and I chose get attached to someone who is sooooo not worth it and I’m crying over a guy who can’t even be man enough to tell me he’s done with me!  I so pissed off with myself because I exerted effort, to learn his language even if I wasn’t really interested, learned to love wine and so much more, I should have not gave in!

I hate myself for feeling too much, I should have known better, I know better but fuck I’ve let my emotions took the wheel!

I’m thankful with friends who really care so much for me and hate to see me like this.  I forgot what was important and I really need to get hold of myself.

I’m soooo done being hurt.  Well like Jane said, this is Singapore, everything is temporary and nothing is for real!

Geez! people say I’m very intelligent, where the fuck is my intelligence now?!?!