Dear You,

I was already getting better after that night Jane called you and you told her its over, until I got that SMS from you when I woke up, apologizing for leaving me hanging.  Just because you apologized doesn’t mean everything is magically fixed, I preferred that you didn’t because it just brought back all the emotions, I literally burst into tears when I read your message BUT I appreciate it, I bet it took you so much courage to SMS me.  It’s a good thing too because I was able to say my goodbye.

You’ve been good to me as well, so don’t think you’ve not been kind to me because you were, the only thing you’ve done wrong was kept me hanging and not having the balls to tell me you’re done with me.

Yeah, we lost in touch and it was my fault too as I was too proud.  Maybe it was a misunderstanding but what happened already happened.  You’ve met a girl you really like and that’s totally fine with me, I just thought that you could have at least be a man to tell me and not just keep me hanging.

Falling for you was never the plan, but yeah I guess with those six months and even if I always deny it, I’ve fallen for you, got hooked and got too attached, it didn’t happen overnight so as much as I am trying to move on and forget about you, I still feel you, see you whenever I close my eyes, I secretly search for you in crowded places, I still hear your voice in my head, but I’m getting better, I’m just really not there yet… it will take time.

We have good memories and I can’t even think of a bad one, not even single one, but yeah except this one.  But everything was great with you.  You’ve made me feel so loved and wanted with your passion, but I’ve learned that it doesn’t mean that it’s the real thing.

I don’t hate you and I’m not angry, it’s just that I’m hurt.

Wendy

So I guess this is where our chapter ends…

Pain doesn’t tell you when you ought to stop.  Pain is the little voice in your head that tries to hold you back beac it knows if you continue, you will change.  Don’t let it stop you from being who you can be… Exhaustion tells you when you ought to stop, you only reach your limit when you can go no further.