I slept almost the whole day and now I am having a terrible headache.

I am feeling a little bit tensed, I don’t know why but I have this notion that there’s something wrong that’s going to happen anytime. *crossed fingers* Well whatever it is I really need to get myself ready, and how the hell should I do that??!! I have no idea!! I just have this bad feeling today and I hate it!

Maybe because days are coming closer and reality is starting to sink in to me now. I’ll be leaving my daughter behind, and as much as I don’t want to I need to make sacrifices, as John Maxwell said, the more sacrifice you give the more success you get. I just wish I could take her with me when I leave but that is not possible for the mean time, actually I can if I want to but circumstances won’t allow me and I really hope to get her soon if no one contest or maybe I should hope for people to mature.

It’s 27 days before Christmas and this will be my first time celebrating Christmas and New Year’s day without my family, I wonder how I’ll survive those days without sinking to my depression. I remember this guy from the pre-departure seminar I attended told us that if we want to lessen our depression we should forget about “dates”, one traits of a filipino is that they tend to remember “dates”, anniversaries, birthdays, Christmas and so on, I think I should train myself now, but it’s going to be hard as I’m very sentimental.

I really need to get up from bed and start packing and do the checklist but I feel so lazy!

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