How do you let go of something really special that used to give you butterflies and makes your heart flutters so much and now only gives you pain?
How can you hold onto something that used to feel so real and now seems to drift away?
What to do? Let go? Walk away and don’t turn around?
Just let God!
Shit Wendy! You never learn.. why do you always have to let yourself be just the second best??
This is me and Mark, my mentor and trainer when I was new in HP, and also my mentor in DOTA All Stars. This picture was taken last December 2008. He will be coming today here in Singapore, he is also here for work, and I am going to pick him up at the airport and I can’t wait to see him, and since “Dear John” is showing here since yesterday, I will drag him with me to watch that movie, of course he won’t be able to say no, I picked him up after all 
I am just so excited that a very good friend will be here with me in Singapore and it would definitely lessen my homesickness. Mark has been a wonderful friend, he is the most decent and respectful guy I know next to my former Supervisor in Assumption.
I have been watching a lot of vampire movies now a day.. after I finished all the available series of The Vampire Diaries, I started watching True Blood.
Now I get so curious on how really good in bed those freaking vampires… hahahahaha because in all movies/tv series I’ve watch about vampires, they make it seems that vampires are really damn good in bed, and now I am fantasizing of having a vampire as a boyfriend, well not because of the sex, but all the adventures you can experience when you have one.
Vampire Diaries is interesting, well at least for me, it is more of a chick flick, the typical vampire story where a vampire fell in love with a girl and vice versa, it revolves around how the vampire would do anything to protect the girl because as other stories the girl is usually the interest of other vampires too. This same goes for True Blood but the interesting part here is that people are aware of them and vampires are figthing for equal rigths, and there are more sex scenes here that’s why I got to curious how effing good vampires are.
Then I’ve watched all episodes available of Glee and still wanting for more, I love this TV show, it makes me sing, I love the arrangements of the songs, and oh all characters have a wonderful voice that would really touch your souls.
And today, I’ll start with One Tree Hill Season 7, I was always been a fan of OTH and their soundtracks…
I actually have a lot of studying to do, but procrastination really runs on my blood
naks! as if I already build a nice abs already, hahahahaha
anyway, it freaking hurts so much… is it a bad idea that I worked out when it’s the first day of my period? Deym! I don’t even know if it’s my muscles on my tummy that hurts or my lower abdomen because of dysmenorrhea…
Oh yeah! I started to go to gym again and I hope this time it’ll be for good and not just a month… hahahaha I have a bad habit of starting something and then suddenly stops, I’m not even in the middle of it…
I really want to blog now, there’s so much in my mind that I wanna let out but I can’t concentrate because I can’t sit properly plus the pain is really killing me, the saddest part is I can’t take ibuprofen because they don’t sell it here over-the-counter, damn Singapore!! If I want to get one I need to go clinic have a consultation then get the medicine.
The funny thing is… the other day, when I went to see a doctor for my asthma because I have been having chronic attacks, the doctor just asked me a few questions and didn’t even checked me up physically, or my breathing whatsoever, then even asked me what do I want for inhaler… the one with steroids or the pure salbutamol only, wow!?!? wth?!? so I decided to see another doctor because I don’t trust this one as I don’t think he knows what he’s doing… although I know I need the one with corticosteroids because it’s chronic but I still want to see other doctor, well luckily I found one and he seems to know what to do now because he talks like how my doctor back in manila talks to me 
It’s just crazy… this is Singapore, why the hell would a doctor let me choose what kind of inhaler I want?!? Shouldn’t he be the one to prescribe it? Funny but really annoying…
I really have to stop here… I’m really in pain now, maybe next time..
Tagalog kung tagalog!!
Di ko na maalala kung kelan at anong taon na uso yang Happy Puso na yan pero naaalala ko na high school pa lang ako nyan… meron akong kaibigan nung high school na paboritong paborito si Jolina, as in lahat ng itsura ni Jolina at kilos eh pinipilit nya atang gayahin…
It’s Valentine’s day and I believe it’s also Chinese New Year like I care, hahaha, anyway, I’ve never got so many date invitations in my life since now, sometimes I find it really crazy that these guys would really go out with me after I said all the worsts things about me to turn them off, it doesn’t seem to work… and a lot of guys have been greeting me “happy valentines” since last night… The thing with Valentine’s Day, I don’t celebrate it like how other people would do, or let’s say couples, as I have always said with my 9 years of blogging, I grew up celebrating Valentine’s Day with my whole family because it’s my Grandfather’s birthday, I still remember that me and cousins will always make a personalized Valentine’s/Birthday card for him…
I really hate Singapore!!! Why is “Dear John” still not showing here?!??! Been waiting for that like forever and it’s not yet showing here? #$@%&*^@#!
anyway… HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY EVERYONE 